48 days to graduation:)

I was very discouraged last night. I was at a loss of what to do about my school bill and tools. I still do not know how its all going to work but before I went to bed last night I read Psalm 27.

1The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
5For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
9Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

I have seen the goodness of the Lord and am waiting to see it again. This passage teaches us that God is always with His children. No matter what arises God is in control. Now let me tell you, when you do not know what to do and know you can do nothing, you depend on the Lord. ( well most of the time Because you are reminded, by Psalm 27, that's its all you can do.

I ordered a tool box today because it was a very good deal(on sale and a hundred dollar gift card) and am trusting God to provide for it and all the rest of my needs. God knows what is going to happen between now and graduation and I do too. I am going to go to school and do my best to serve God in all that I do. God knows that and all the rest of the happenings I have no clue about. That's a whole lot harder to to do than type. When I am tired and sick of the constant re-runs of the daily grind, the temptation to give up on everything is knocking on the door. I cant' count how many time I have wanted to quit and do something else. Yea quit the dream I have had since I was twelve or thirteen.

The Christian life is not a walk in the park; its a bloody battle field were severe wounds and monumental victories happen throughout the campaign. The wounds because we are foolish and have forgotten what we were purged from and the victories by the grace of God alone.

I have to finish cleaning the house tomorrow and hopefully I will enlist the help of my cousins next door:) I am planning on having it all squared away by Sunday night; I hope and so does everyone else coming to stay.

I am very tired and want to go to bed but work comes first. If I had worked the job I have now full time I would have school almost paid off. Hindsight is 20/20. No reason to dwell on it.

Well I am all blog out. have a great weekend. yours for cheaper gas and smaller government